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| I'm ready to give up, ready to concede. This life is no longer mine, too old to continue messing around. One more year is all I need. After that, I'll hold out my wrists ready to be shackled. | | |
| The night air calms my soul as I think to myself:
What is it that I am looking for?
Where is it that I am trying to get to?
If there was only one thing going right in my life, what would I want it to be?
All these questions and no answers. When will I reach a point in my life where I can answer these questions without thought, without hestitation?
I am just a body with a roaming soul. My soul comes and goes as it pleases. It knows not where it belongs because my body cannot contain it, my mind does not console it, my heart does not embrace it.
我希望有一天我會找到一個像你一樣的男人而他會跟我一樣得想要和我在一起。 | | |
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"please sir, may i have some more?"
"watch this..."
"i can make my eyes disappear!"
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| let us reassess ourselves.
what is need?
"Something needed; : To have an absolute requirement
for; : To want strongly; to feel that one must have something; To be
obliged or required to"
en.wiktionary.org/wiki/need
"something that is wanted or required to increase a person's quality of life, general wellbeing or happiness. ..."
www.evaluateit.org/glossary/index.html
"A specific quantity of a specific good for which an
individual would pay any price. These are the goods and services a
person must have."
www.mcwdn.org/ECONOMICS/EcoGlossary.html
"a condition requiring relief; 'she satisfied his need
for affection'; 'God has no need of men to accomplish His work'; 'there
is a demand for jobs'
have or feel a need for; 'always needing friends and money' "
wordnet.princeton.edu/perl/webwn
so what is it that we really need? is it material? those slick new shoes that go perfectly with any outfit, those jeans that make your legs look longer, that shirt you just think you absolutely can't live without, that bike you loved the idea of but just sits in your basement now? is it compassion? the friends that have stuck with you through your miserable years of adolescence and continue to be there even if you've been neglecting them, the family that's always there even if you don't exactly know they are, the pet that destroys all your belongings but knows exactly how to comfort you when the time comes, that special someone that completes you? is it spatial? that huge mansion in the countryside that brightens your eyes every time you drive by, the park about a mile away that extends out to the lake and drowns out all your troubles, that beach far away from home where you can finally relax? or is it existential? the pictures you take to prove the places you visited and the people you were with were real, the marks you left on the bench reminding the world that you've been there, the hearts and minds you've left impressions on to make sure you'll live on even after death, the awards and plaques with your name on them so that it can be read from time to time and it'll be known that you were great?
ask yourself: "do i really need that?"
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